Mixtape .

Mixtape .

I'm downloading a mixtape .
Idk how it's gnna sound .
I just needed an upgrade whn it comes to my iPod .
+ I suddenly realized I neglect my diary , because of blogspot .
Tht is kinda sucky .
Excuse me I digress .
But I dnt evn knw hw I write half thee blogs tht I do .
My mind is almost incapable of staying on one subjct .
I thnk I'll just say everythng I'm thnking about .
This is a first .
Probably a last .
Because I knw it's a lot .

Setting up my digital camera , my boyfriend , my U.S. History prjct , college , stupid ppl , wht I want to be + become , why I sometimes stress over thngs I cnt cntrl , how wht I dnt knw scares thee living shidd outta me , psychology + how I wish so badly I could figure ppl out , wht's going on widd me + my mom , how I wish thngs were simple , how I miss being little , wht happened to my happiness widd myself , wht happened to my determination , why I get drained so easily by thngs tht used to nt bother me , how excited I am about going natural , how I just wnna be loved , why I dnt feel like I give my all nemore , how I hope tht thee thngs I have done haven't messed myself up in my future , how much I wnna let go of certain thngs + just be rid of thm for good , but I cnt , why I complain sometimes , how much I wnt some pullover sweaters, flannels, + a nixon the newton watch , have I chngd permanently + is this is who I really am nw , how I'm just nt sure , why I second guess myself + thn mess up , because I second guessed myself , why I care about ppls feelings , how my family is going through hard times , I thnk my heart has up a wall , + I cnt get nethng out or put nethng in , my father , wht my boyfriend really thnks of me deep dwn inside , where he wnts our relationship to go or become of , how good this feels to say exactly wht I wnt , how cold I am , literally , where I'll be in 5 or 10 yrs , wht will I def major in , in college , how I'm gnna pay for college , why I'm being so slack about college , why everyone is excited about it but me , how I dnt wnna grow up as fast as I am , how I wnna press rewind + cherish thee moments I dnt thnk I cherished enough , + how I'm stopping this list rite nw .

Btw , I dnt even knw where thee mixtape is saved to on my computer .
Have a way better day thn I am ppl .
I need some UO *